Here we go again

Its time to really try to stick to this weight loss thing. I have been lacking in the motivation department for quite some time. I have this glorious idea that with the snap of a finger I will fall right into the groove of watching what I eat and all that good stuff. Everyday I wake up and say “today is the day”. I always end up sabotaging myself. Its like in the back of my mind I don’t think I’m good enough to be fit and healthy. Its no longer about being fat (oh how I hate that word) or skinny. My health is starting to suffer.  I have developed pre-diabetes due to being over weight, I get out of breath just going up the stairs in my house, among other health issues.  Its been very difficult for me to stay on track. I spend a lot of time at G’s parents through the week. The minute his mother finds out you are on a diet, she tries to shove the sweets at you. I don’t know what she gets out of it, but she does it to everyone, not just me. I have a problem saying NO. I admit, I am a junk food junkie. I love my sweets. I’m really hoping to adopt a new lifestyle as of today. I know I have said this before and ended up not being successful at it. This time around I will keep in mind that I didn’t start this unhealthy lifestyle over night, so changing it isnt going to happen overnight. I know I will probably slip and fall at times, but I have to keep trying. I have to change my whole way of thinking and eating.

I really am glad that I found this site. Its somewhere that I can reach out to others who can relate to me, and be of moral support. I guess thats really all I have to say for now. IF I think of more I will write later

1 Comment so far

  1. MommyNeva @ May 18th, 2009

    It sounds to me like you’re setting the bar too high so that you’ll fail. My advice is that maybe instead of decided ‘I’m going to only eat healthy food from this day on’ you should set a goal that’s more like ‘I’m only going to have 2 sweets today’ that way you set yourself an attainable goal. If you accomplish your small goal you’ll be more willing to set higher ones! You don’t have to give up EVERYTHING you know, infact most studies show that if you fail to indulge yourself with one of the things you want, you’ll only crave it more and then when you finally do splurge you’ll eat 10 times as much as you would have if you’d just taken a couple bites in the first place! The grand canyon wasn’t carved in one day, and you can’t expect to do it. It was carved over along period of time with the careful and ever present motivation of a tiny stream that did not give up. Stop beating yourself up, you CAN do this!!

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